A Note To My Mind

I am a worthless person and I don’t deserve to be alive.

So don’t tell me lies like

I should seek help and survive.

Because only I know

How I cry myself to sleep.

So, don’t remind me

In times of dark, calm and peaceful I should keep.

It took too long for me to realize

I can’t silence the screams of my mind.

There’s no truth in my words when I say

I can go through this chaos and leave my agony behind.

Deep down I believe

Nobody understands how I feel in the end.

So, don’t tell me that

I can’t put on a fake smile and pretend.

It’s time that I should know

There’ll be days when I feel weak and numb.

So, it’s perfectly fine if I say

I am crazy, insane and dumb.

You cannot presume that

I can go through this all if I stay strong.

I have understood

Oh, you have always been wrong!

I have discovered

Repressing emotions helps.

You can just not insist that

Weak are neither the tear marks on my cheek nor the memories of my yelps.

Because I’ve discerned that

It’s okay to go through what I’m experiencing if quiet I keep.

And I would be mistaken if I believe

Through the curtains of my sky, one day, light will surely peep.

Oh dear mind of mine, you can’t deny that I know

 I am what I am.

-RIDDHIMA NAYYAR

WAITTTTT! Before you leave or start reading anything ahead, Read this poetry from bottom to top!! Yes, all lines but in reverse order! GOOOO!!

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Welcome Back!!

So, as you must’ve figured it out, this poetry revolves around Mental health… You know, there are many people who suffer from some or the other sort of psychological disorder, but it isn’t fair to take away their hopes of being happy and perfectly healthy again by condemning them, calling them names, telling them having problems is wrong or behaving strangely around them. It just isn’t right! The thing we need to do when we meet such a person is to give them some support, some comfort, some courage and some medical help. It is medical help what will truly help them see the light again.

This poetry has two ends. You could be viewing your life from any of these two sides and it’s not wrong to be in either of the two phases. But, everybody needs to choose which side is better for them. Only you have the power to write your own destiny but being on the darker side just wouldn’t help you in any way. So, choose wisely. Silencing screams doesn’t help, sharing your problems does. Speak out for yourself, for your own good!

Coming back to this piece, tell me what you feel about this one. Also, it is my first attempt at reverse poetry, so please do tell me if you think I did well.

Stay safe! Stay Healthy! Stay Happy!😊

~Riddhima Nayyar🌸

PS: The featured image is a sketch drawn by me.

41 Comments Add yours

  1. Nathi says:

    Riddhima, you’ve done an excellent work with this reverse poetry. To be honest, on my first read, I was slightly worried. And when reached the end going backwards, it made more sense.

    Hats off to you!!

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    1. Thank you so much Nathi!! I am really glad you liked it!!❤😊

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      1. Nathi says:

        It’s my pleasure 😇
        Keep writing and inspiring ✍️

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  2. AAROHI TRIPATHI says:

    wow riddhi didi this is kuhu again what a sensitive poem it’s so good

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    1. Thank you Kuhu!! ❤ Happy to know you could read between the lines and understand the underlying message of it!😊

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  3. AAROHI TRIPATHI says:

    I am a big girl after all

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    1. Hehe… Yes, you are!😊

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  4. AAROHI TRIPATHI says:

    I had a question who did the illustration next to your poem

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    1. Well, it’s me who did it!🙈

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  5. AAROHI TRIPATHI says:

    Wow you are awesome

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    1. Hehe, Thank you so much, dear!❤ You’re amazing too!😊

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  6. AAROHI TRIPATHI says:

    Thanks di

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  7. AAROHI TRIPATHI says:

    Hehehe

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  8. 𝑹𝒐𝑩𝑰𝑵 🌋 says:

    Haha! That’s really cool how it totally reverses meaning reading it the other way around. Was worth getting to the end. I knew there’d be some kind of statement to reverse all of its meaning! But wasn’t expecting it to work like that.

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    1. Hehe… Thank you so much!!😊 Glad to know it surprised you.🤭

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  9. Good lord Riddhima this piece caught me so off-guard! °o°

    *inhales*
    *exhales*

    Ah now that I’m calmed down, I have one word – WOW.

    I’ve mentioned many times how I love your growth with your choice of words and rhyme schemes, but this piece stands special.
    Not only does this show that you have excelled creatively, it also shows that you’re brave enough to venture into sensitive topics of mental health. It is growth at its finest. ( ͡◉ ͜ ʖ ͡◉)

    You have executed this reverse poem in the most flawless and creative way I could’ve ever imagined. Like Nathi, even I was worried on first read. My eyebrows were furrowed together and I was ready to text you immediately after reading this, until I read your note in the end. Reading this piece in reverse filled me with more respect and admiration for you than just a day before !

    Not only was this a happy surprise to me, but also a testament to your skill of working with powerful and deeply resonating topics and being able to turn them into unimaginable pieces of creativity and art.

    “I should seek help and survive

    Because only I know”

    I’m in awe of you Riddhima.
    Your versatility, your fluidity with words, your artistic mind, there’s so much of you that inspires me.

    This, hands down, is a very special and important poetic piece that I not only love, but respect deeply.

    As always, EXCEPTIONAL RIDDHIMA. ♡

    *Throws panda hugs at you aggressively* (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

    Stay safe and happy!
    And keep writing these thoughtful and beautiful pieces!

    Loads of love!
    ~Megha 💜
    PS. I loce your sketch of the girl in this poem! It’s so beautiful. 🥺

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    1. I have* calmed down. Oops

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      1. It’s okie! Typos are common!😊

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    2. I love* your sketch *
      Uff so many mistakes 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

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      1. Happens! I can understand!😂

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    3. OhmygoshMeghaaaaa!🥺

      I really don’t know if you’d believe me when I say that you literally had me jumping in my seat when I saw that you had read this piece and left a note for me to read… I had literally been waiting so impatiently for you and E to read thisssss!!
      And then, when I actually read this comment, tears welled up in my eyes.🥺 I really don’t know how but you and E have literally gifted me so much love, genuine warmth and pure smiles that I literally am overwhelmed right now.
      I always think that it is my duty to give you back more and more respect and love for what you have given to me in such a short span of time. It takes time for me to trust people, and you girls have developed a natural and true bond with me. I don’t have many friends, but you girls remind me that the ones I have are all that I truly need, that they mean so so so much to me! You guys have inspired me, supported me, lifted me, listened to me when I blabbered literal nonsense and swamped you with tons of poor jokes! You mean so much to me. ❤
      It’s like the moment I post, I check my WP at regular intervals just to see if you guys had seen it… I wait for you guys to post the incredible content that you write… You have literally mesmerised me with your magic and touched me with your love. It’s strange that without even meeting you or seeing you once, I have such deep feelings for you! I owe you so much for all that you have done for me!❤
      I LOVE YOU!❤🥺

      And thank you for once again adorning my day with your love and support! ❤
      And yeah, I knew I could worry my readers on the first read and that’s the reason the little note (in the end) had some phrases in bold!😂

      Thank you so so so very much for the beautiful comment that literally lit up my face and drowned me in an ocean of happiness!🤗❤

      *Warmly receives all the panda hugs and telepathically sends truckloads of love your way*❤🐼

      Loads of love and hugs
      ~Riddhima🌸

      PS: Thank youuuuuuu!!❤

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  10. Enigma says:

    WOW, like in all sheer ferocity of my love for words, I can only just scream, wow. This is so goddamn amazing, R!

    When I started reading this piece, I was a bit addled over the tone of the piece cause it was such a heart-wrenching piece and I just wanted to shower you with all the optimism that I have in me and all preachy speeches and a truckload of hugs and so much love because it truly had a melancholic note to it.

    But after I realize it was a piece of reverse poetry, I just marveled over the wonderous creativity and dexterity of your artistry, my dear R. You really have grown in terms of writing poetry and that fact makes me admire you more and I am so very happy for you.

    The theme is such a sensitive topic but a subject people need to speak about more often and embrace their mental health with all love, hope, and optimism. Damn R, this piece is just a creative warpaint itself.

    I also interpret this piece as a conflict between a person and one’s mind. The normal order of the verses shows the darkest of thoughts and the reverse array is just conquering that darkness and stop your brain from overthinking. I don’t know if you intended to make that happen or I am just overanalyzing it. However, it is such an intricate piece and elusive to think from both orders, I salute you for doing that with admirable perfection.

    My favorite verses were the ones who were literal antithesis in the reverse form:

    “I have discovered
    Repressing emotions helps and You can just not insist that
    Repressing emotions helps”

    “Through the curtains of my sky, one day, light will surely peep
    Oh dear mind of mine, you can’t deny that I know
    I am what I am. and its reverse order is just two beautifully written meanings.”

    This was such a great reflection to read from you, Riddhima. This is one of my favorite pieces from you.

    Truckloads of love and biggest of panda hugs,

    Enigma 🙂 ❤

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    1. Ahhh, Thank you so so very much E!!❤

      My heart’s literally jumping up and down screaming “Yay! I did it!!” *Just realizes that she has been rocking her head while writing this and breaks into a laughter!* 😂
      I literally… I mean… I feel so short of words to describe the emotions that I’m experiencing right now!
      Firstly, I am sooooo happy that all the feedbacks that I’ve received for this piece are so appreciative! It’s all that I could’ve asked for!😊
      Secondly, I think I’m gonna reiterate this until the end of time that I LOVE YOU!!❤ Thank you for caring so much when you thought that this piece was a reflection of some sort of melancholy of mine, thank you for being ever ready to cheer me up whenever I feel low. Your concern and love really warms my heart!❤️
      And yes, your interpretation is right. It was supposed to be the way you’ve analysed it.🤭
      Lastly, I cannot thank you enough for penning such a heart-touching note! Thank you so much for pouring so much love and warmth in my life!!❤️

      Truckloads of love and warmest panda hugs
      ~Riddhima 🌸

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      1. Enigma says:

        Aww, you are very sweet and friendship is always a two way thing, R! You mean just as much to me.

        Enigma 🙂

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  11. Enigma says:

    Also, I just realised you created the illustration, it is a simple illustration but the emotions are well convey in the girl’s facial expressions. You are just brimming with so much creativity and talent, I swear.

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    1. Hehe…Thank you so much!!😊❤️

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  12. Firstly I just impressed by your masterpiece😅 and then came to P.S., literally you left me speechless!! That sketch, ✋

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    1. Heyy!! Thank you so much!😊 Glad you liked it.
      PS: Is that a high five? If yes, *whips hand in the air as if giving a high five to literally no one!*😂✋ And if not, you might just as well ignore this!😂

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      1. Lol…😂😂😂 Not in that sense, but I like your funny side though….😂😂😂✋

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  13. Laleh Chini says:

    What a beautiful poem Riddhima.

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    1. Thank you so much, dear!❤

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      1. Laleh Chini says:

        My pleasure sweetheart.

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  14. Tanya says:

    What a genius and beautiful poem Riddhima 🌼 😁

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    1. Thank you, Tanya!!🌸

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  15. Tisha says:

    This was great! The reverse poetry technique you used is spellbounding! Great work!! And the sketch is beautiful!

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    1. Thank you so much!!😊

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